Silly girl leaving

as if there were nothing behind,

walking away

as if there were no start

and there were no end.

The Dancing Tree

On a windy day

I was not happy

but I was not sad

and the sky was blue

and it was grey

Documentation

I woke up today with puffy eyes. I am me again. I'd like to take it all in as long as I can. This weather and the song. I can ask the world to stop; but... it wouldn't. I've come to accept that in a very bittery, full of rage and anger kind of way; but... I accepted it.
I think what triggered my state yesterday was a large dose of hope.

I have no idea why I called it hope.

Truth is, it might have been a large dose of denial.
At the end of the day though, everything was as it should be.

1-1-2012

You can play this during.

20 years 1 month 6 days old.

Documentation of the past few hours of my life from yesterday the 31st of December 2011, till now: 1st of January 2012 10:33 AM

I've been sleeping from 8:00 pm yesterday.
 
        ...

 9:00 pm
10:00 pm
11:00 pm
12:00 am. 1st of january 2012: I remember vaguely my mom kissing me happy new year.
1:00 am
2:00 am
3:00 am
4:00 am
5:00 am
6:00 am
7:00 am
8:00 am
9:00 am: I woke up.